SAFEly hidden!

This was the first really vivid really long dream in a while!


My family was living in a penthouse hotel suite and we were in the process of setting up our security system. We had two security guards in our living room protecting the contents of the safe. One body guard was from an elite branch of the FBI and the other was Jared. It was my mom, Nana, and myself explaining the importance of protecting the safe. We had stolen secrets from some huge influential family and we also had our life's fortune in there as well. We needed that safe to be protected! That safe was everything in our lives and people wanted to kill us for the contents in that safe. The security guards out front of our doors protected the front doors, and the safe guards protected every other possible entrance and our family. Once we had acquainted them with procedure and the rest of the suite, there was a slight threat from the outside, but Jared and the agent squashed it while we waited in the safe room adjacent to the bathroom.

The next few hours we are preparing ourselves and the suite for a gigantic socialite party! Jared and the FBI agent are mapping out things for the party. The next thing I know my dad bursts through the doors with a large party of people in tow including the rest of my family! Apparently, in this reality I have 7 sisters and we all are blonde with deep south curls atop our heads, with loud booming voices, twang, and even louder laughter. We are giving a tour of the suite in our study, my eldest sister announces her engagement and we say something like OH happy day, she no longer has to drown her loneliness in our family fortune! Everyone is happy for her and distracted that I decide to sneak away with Jared into a bathroom across the suite. I push him against the wall and say finally, we don't have to put up with the charade and I can kiss you all I want! He's laughing and we are happy just being mischievous in a forgotten bathroom! I don't really know what we're doing, we knew our relationship was improbable, but man it was good to kiss him!

I am feeling crazy, impulsive, wild, and rebellious and tell Jared that we are blowing this popsicle stand and enjoying life outside of this suite! I strip down to more, I guess, pedestrian clothes and run with Jared laughing wildly with my curls bouncing and the world in front of me. We run to where it all began for us, which was different than our real world beginning, and that's when we finally began to walk hand in hand. It was blissful! We walked along a shoreline with lots of driftwood and small wave making a rhythmic humming as we walk. We stop at our favorite beachside burger shack and enjoy a milkshake and a burger. Honestly, it has been so long since I have had a juicy mouthwatering burger that the taste of this burger in my dream was pure ecstasy, more blissful than being with Jared, than being a rebel, than running free from my socialite life, that burger was amazing! I pull out a piece of paper after we're done eating and it's a written record of my boyfriends month by month. The last thing I remember is updating the record to say that Jared and I were back on the relationship track.

Damn! I don't want to be in a relationship with Jared, I have moved on and I think he has moved on, at least from what I hear, and I hope he is a fraction of the happy I am right now, but I always feel like these dreams have some hidden meaning that I can't understand or I just don't want to! In the movie Inception, safes were often the resting place of important information, but maybe I just don't want to know! I hope to be in a relationship in the nearby future, but I don't want to force anything. I just am happy enough that I feel like I can handle the fear and excitement that comes with a new relationship. So I guess I'm ready to be in a relationship in the nearby future, not want to be!

If anyone knows of a dream psychologist that can somehow work Jared out of my dreams I would definitely love to know them! I have moved on and all I want is for both of us to be happy in very separate lives!

Too da le doo bloggers and readers from afar!

WOAH!

First, I can't really remember my dreams very well because I have been taking Nyquil and for some reason it makes them a lot harder to remember. One dream I am running in and out of my apartment waiting for my new dishwasher. I also ran into Kate's apartment a lot and there were a lot of international students in there! Then I finally ran out of her apartment and around the corner there was a shoreline of rocks and ocean waves beating against them. That's all I've got!

But what I really wanted to say:

Alright blogger friends I only want to say be safe AND HAVE THE BEST TIME OF YOUR LIVES ON YOUR RADIOHEAD TOUR!!!!!! Notice the safe part was a little understated, the only thing I expect from being safe is 1. don't get arrested 2. don't die! That's it!


I expect updates on the craziest experiences and everything! Arete and Fantasy have the best few weeks of your lives and I am happy for you guys to have this experience!

As Spock once said, LIVE LONG AND PROSPER!

small dream, BIG PROBLEM

The dream was simple and annoying. I look at my phone and see an email from Jared saying he sent a friend request for someone that he knew to friend me on facebook. I answer with an answer like "OK thanks for explaining because I was wondering who this person was!' That's all for the dream!

BIG PROBLEM

I

HAVE

A

COUGH!

MY

HEAD

WEIGHS

1 MILLION

POUNDS!

I hate being sick, but at least I am being productive! I have finished my scholarship application for study abroad, I am endorsed to study in Spain in June 2012, and I finished my application for the study abroad program!

WHAHOO! Granada here I come!

Dreaming my butt off!

Last night I decided to sleep a lot in spite of all the homework I have due today. So here are some of the dreams I had last night:

Stella:

I was at my Nana's house for a family function and I brought my beautiful kitty Stella (at the current moment she is the most annoying kitty) It was a beautiful spring day and everyone was in and out of the backdoor. Well no one was minding Stella's determination to be outside including myself. Next thing I realize is that Stella is nowhere to be found! I run out the back door and I see her sitting by the garage just grooming herself in the daylight. I start calling to her and running towards her, but she just picks up and starts sprinting towards the opposite fencing. She continues running and half my family is following her! She runs so far along the fence that she encounters other cats and a donkey and her presence causes a ruckus amongst the other animals. She was about to start a fight with a huge grey cat when I pick her up and head back towards Nana's!

Zombies:

Yes I had a Zombie dream! Once again I was an intern at Seattle Grace Hospital and I was touring the hospital behind Dr. Bailey. Dr. Bailey introduced us to a new doctor who was a 10 year old little asian girl. She was really cute and she was telling us about her breakthrough medicine. Bailey had to excuse herself to do something and the little doctor took her leave as well. Well the interns and I were extremely interested in this tiny doctor so we follow her down to her research laboratory. Her research lab was incredibly sketchy that was dark, damp, and smelly. On each side of the walkway there were this tall locker looking things that had labels on them. The tiny doctor was working on a cadaver when she notices us. She has fear in her eyes and we know at the point that we shouldn't be here. We get another look around and notice the lockers are filled with cadavers or what look like cadavers. One of the interns trips backwards in the astonishment, and cuts her hand on something and she starts bleeding. The tiny doctor and the cadaver she was working on change radically! The tiny doctor rolls up her sleeve to reveal rotted bone and flesh under her lab coat and the cadaver wakes up ready to eat. She can't contain herself and has her and the zombie move up towards the human level so they can feed without suspicion of missing interns. We start freaking out! I am designated as the one to alert the hospital of the zombies being made in her lab and the others are stationed throughout the lab to monitor the zombies and make sure that none of them escape. For the rest of the dream my perspective changes between my perspective and the other interns' prospective, which was pretty nifty!

Nana's house again:

In this dream I am at Nana's house before a huge awards show like the Oscars. A few of my friends are there and we are nomming on some appetizers before we head out. One of my friends surprises me though, he confesses that he is interested in not just being a friend! Which, I didn't really know what to do with at the time so I kind of just put it off as a joke. However, he kept following me around the kitchen to try and explain and I am just trying to avoid it. This guy is not the best with expressing his feelings so this chase around the kitchen lasted quite a little bit. Finally, accept what he is saying and let him hold my hand as we head out the door to the Oscars. I am still not into him having this new found love for me so once we arrive at the Oscars I become extremely busy in efforts to wrap my head around his confession. I am walking towards the stage when my mom holds up a sign by this guy saying "Nina is beautiful!" I act like I don't see anything and I keep walking. If you're wondering why I didn't reveal this friend, well I didn't want it to be awkward and I don't want my guy friends thinking anything out of it, so he will remain anonymous!

That's about that for my dreams last night!

Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday

I was really busy this past week and didn't have sufficient time to blog. I really shouldn't blog now, but it's my favorite form of procrastination!

I will start with Wednesday's dream:

It was an escape from a dictator who went soft for a day. We lived in this muddy jungle type environment and we had to hurry to have a free life. There were different stations set up, one for ground transportation, one for walking, and one for flying. We were assigned the flying station and my family couldn't be happier! We were running with all of our belongings hoping to make it in time for our flight. Of course I am one of the first of my family to make it to the "airport". The airport was 4 crop sized airplanes in a mowed grassy area and that's about it! I start freaking out that my family is running behind, so I run back to see what the hell is going on! They are walking and chatting idly like our freedom wasn't at stake. I somehow get them to run towards the airport. We were too late, they were already loading a group of four blondes before us! I start arguing with the gate attendant and she says they are running behind and that we are not leaving for another 3 planes. Phew! So we sit in the airport enjoy the sun, go to the shops, until finally it's our turn. We end up flying into Oklahoma and the first place we attend is the fair. We start searching around the fair grounds just taking our time because finally we were free!!!

Thursdays dream: 

I threw a huge slumber party with all of my friends and some of their friends. Of course it was only girls, but man it was stupid. I definitely did not think this one through! There were girls of all ages some were five years old and some were 21! It was the weirdest thing of my life! The morning after the sleepover I send Kenni with most of the girls to exercise and run and get the heck out of my hair! While Kenni is entertaining 15 of the girls, I go to my bedroom to relax. BUT the five year olds are following me around because they don't know what to do! So we end up playing dress up, until we start wondering where Kenni is! Her and the girls have been slip and sliding for the past hour and a half!

That's all I remember!

Saturday's dream: 

***Warning for all men who read this blog, it is incredibly graphic, I can't believe I even dreamed it up***

I can' believe I am so messed up in the head, is this stuff institution worthy?

I don't really remember the first part of the dream very well. I simply remember being happy with my family and having someone in our lives that we trusted dearly! That someone had wronged my family in an unforgivable way, and I had to have my revenge.  I think he killed my parents and I wanted revenge! He lived in my parents house and he was about to have this huge soiree. So I snuck in and told all the service people to leave unless they wanted to die. I run upstairs and open the door to him and his mistress in the throws. I start yelling that I need answers and I need them now or they will experience pain as never before! He starts laughing, but pushes the girl off of him and looks at me smugly. I tell him I have people to back me up if he chooses not to comply. I start yelling tell me what you know, tell me what you withheld! He again laughs and says he'll never tell. I give him one more chance to tell me or I will make his mistress start cutting off things he holds dear. I think he thought I was talking about money and he begins to laugh in my face. I hand his mistress a knife and tell her to start cutting things off. She looks at me like I'm crazy and I hold a gun to her head and tell her to do it. I bind the man to the bed so he can't hurt the mistress and close the door for her to begin. I hear screams and shrieks and the most awful noises I have ever heard. She opens the door with bloody hands and hands me a piece of his manhood. (what the fuck brain?) We unbind his mouth so he can speak, he tells me about some money squandering he has been doing for years without my parents knowing. When they found out he killed them and changed their will so he would inherit everything. I tell him thank you for the truth, and then tell the mistress cut off the rest of his manhood and his tongue, once again she hesitates but I shoot her in the foot to get her to comply. Once again we bind him and I close the door. I don't even know how to describe holding this man's junk and throwing it back in his face. Without his tongue it was hard for him to yell, but somehow he managed to say GO! I begin sprinting for my car, finding my wallet phone and keys! I run out the backdoor and I hear the dogs barking. The last thought I remember is how am I going to get the dogs in my car?

That's when I woke up from this nightmare panting and sweating. I basically start freaking out, what the hell just went down inside my brain? I think I need to reevaluate my life...

Seriously, this is not the first incredibly disturbing dream I have had, this is just the first one I chose to share, and well I don't know if I'll keep saturday's dream up.

anger problems

So as I was hanging out with New Beginnings today I noticed I was crankier than usual, why? I think it had to do with my rather unsettling dream.

So this dream occurred during a 20 minute snooze session after my alarm went off. The dream was an imagination of what could have happened when I woke up in a parallel life. So in this dream, I woke up to Jared and Samantha running around my apartment seemingly destroying everything. People were running in and out of my apartment moving things and I was furious! I love a peaceful environment to wake-up to and things were crazy. Jared started yelling that he couldn't live in the apartment anymore because of the way it was set up and that was why there were people walking in and out. I was frustrated and running late because I had 5 minutes to get out the door to make it to my practicum classroom. He is talking in my ear about the changes he's making while I am struggling to find everything I need along with proper clothes to wear in a classroom! I yell back at him "Last time I checked you have a loft that you can return to, why don't you stay there for a few days! Leave my place alone!" He then begins blabbing and yelling in my ear about why he isn't going back to the loft and I am completely ignoring him. I am trying to at least make it to my bathroom so I can have some peace! But Jared and Sam both follow me in there talking my ear off. Sam is trying to convince me why Jared is right and she becomes particularly insistent. She is near yelling when I slap her with all of my force, the whole apartment fell quiet. I immediately regret what I've done because my cousin doesn't deserve that. I start balling and hugging my cousin asking for her forgiveness. The slap should have been for Jared, but Sam was right there and her cheek happened to catch all the fury I owned in my body. I wake-up as I'm still apologizing to Sam.

Crazy dream for such a short amount of time!

In other news...

Alright so my dream recall this past weekend is a little on the dull side.

Most of my readers have already heard that I had a dream where I was driving and passed by at least 5 cop cars. One of them finally pulls me over for no reason and I receive a ticket for $210. This dream has me freaked out that I am going to be pulled over sometime soon.

But in other news, I ran 7 miles yesterday. This was by far my longest run in my marathon training history, and I am feeling the pain today. I have always had a weak hip flexor since my cheerleading days in high school and yesterday was too much for it. So today I am sitting around with a bum hip hoping to rest it up so I can run again by Wednesday. However, I am not too bummed about my hip because I RAN 7 FREAKING MILES! Woah! That's over half of the half- marathon! I DID IT! That run yesterday made running the marathon less of wild goal and more like an achievable dream! Whahoo! I would like to thank my dad for making this possible!

 We had a system going on yesterday, I would run at my turtle yet effective pace and he would skateboard ahead of me where he would stop when he couldn't see me and wait. Once I saw him I would either pause for a sec, walk for a minute, or keep running. He provided checkpoints for me and it was really nice to have someone support me on a run! I think we are making it a regular weekend thing and I think this will be the key to my training successfully! Man I love my dad!

So today I am catching up on homework, probably strengthening my core a little bit and enjoying my accomplishment by watching one of my favorite movies, Castle in the Sky!

Hey guys I RAN 7 MILES!