So today I accomplished something...
The first step of pre-training was to gain the ability to run for 30 minutes straight, and I DID IT! It may seem like nothing to many of you, because many of you can run forever because of long legs, or athletic ability, or love of running. But let me assure you I have none of those things. Short person with even shorter legs, curvy body, and I hate running. I cannot even tell you how much I hate running. Running for minutes on end is one of my least favorite past times! Yet I accomplished running for 30 minutes without stopping today! I FUCKING DID IT! I am no where near being trained, but that first milestone was ruining my life! I was becoming cranky with my friends and I was generally unhappy, but no more!!!!!!! I did it! And I will continue to run and cross the half marathon off my bucket list, because I am strong, I have faith in God, and I can do something for me! Even if it is something that I hate with a passion!
***Sidenote: some of you may be confused as to why I am doing something I hate so much, and I will have an answer for you when I know how to explain it!
OH! Also, I pulled a Kenzie and did some celebratory shopping on modcloth.com! Yay new clothes!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Nightmare...
Well last night I had my first nightmare in a while.
It all started pretty normal. I was with my parents in some town and we were just shopping around in different shops. I had been to one of the shops in real life or in another dream, I can't remember. There was an artifact that I remember wanting so badly. It looked like a dream catcher but has a feather with some sort of token at the end of the feather. Then I tell my parents I am returning to the hotel and I see a different scene emerging. I walk towards the scene and it has Jennifer Aniston and Nicole Kidman. Nicole is telling Jennifer that she always gets all the guys and it's not fair. She then proceeds to tell her that there is one drawback. Dead men are even crawling out of the ground to get to Jennifer. Nicole looks over towards the doorframe and a hand starts crawling out of the door frame. The hand is green and rotted and black, disgusting and scary. Jennifer didn't see it. So I keep watching the doorframe for more hands. Then the the hand reemerges with the other hand soon following it, Jennifer sees it this time. We all fall in fear and start scrambling backwards as the hands reach the mid forearms.
Then I wake up, because my dear friend Abby calls me to ask if I will help her make up a sexy Britney Spears dance. And of course I say yes! I then look at the my TV and a scary movie was playing so I figured my scary dream stemmed from that!
Of course now that I write out this scary dream it doesn't seem as scary. But dead hands that are crawling out of door frames freak me out!
Also, for future reference bloggers I will also be posting about training for a half marathon. Hopefully by writing about my training I can become more inspired to cross this off my bucket list. I am just not inspired at all and running for long amounts of time seems awful. Any ideas to get my motivation juices flowing, because man I need help!
Too da loo, bloggers, until next dream or thought!
It all started pretty normal. I was with my parents in some town and we were just shopping around in different shops. I had been to one of the shops in real life or in another dream, I can't remember. There was an artifact that I remember wanting so badly. It looked like a dream catcher but has a feather with some sort of token at the end of the feather. Then I tell my parents I am returning to the hotel and I see a different scene emerging. I walk towards the scene and it has Jennifer Aniston and Nicole Kidman. Nicole is telling Jennifer that she always gets all the guys and it's not fair. She then proceeds to tell her that there is one drawback. Dead men are even crawling out of the ground to get to Jennifer. Nicole looks over towards the doorframe and a hand starts crawling out of the door frame. The hand is green and rotted and black, disgusting and scary. Jennifer didn't see it. So I keep watching the doorframe for more hands. Then the the hand reemerges with the other hand soon following it, Jennifer sees it this time. We all fall in fear and start scrambling backwards as the hands reach the mid forearms.
Then I wake up, because my dear friend Abby calls me to ask if I will help her make up a sexy Britney Spears dance. And of course I say yes! I then look at the my TV and a scary movie was playing so I figured my scary dream stemmed from that!
Of course now that I write out this scary dream it doesn't seem as scary. But dead hands that are crawling out of door frames freak me out!
Also, for future reference bloggers I will also be posting about training for a half marathon. Hopefully by writing about my training I can become more inspired to cross this off my bucket list. I am just not inspired at all and running for long amounts of time seems awful. Any ideas to get my motivation juices flowing, because man I need help!
Too da loo, bloggers, until next dream or thought!
Friday, January 13, 2012
Getting a complex!
This dream is short and sweet, but I must write out all of my dreams! There is a theory that the more you record your dreams the more vividly you remember them. Well so far this theory is working pretty well. So if you ever question why I post short dreams and not just the crazy ones, this is why! This was also my second dream of the night; it came after the previous posted dream.
I am shopping around with my parents. We were walking around a small strip mall just checking out the small shops and boutiques. A lot of the dream consists of going in and out of different shops and trying on things. My mom lately has been preoccupied by singleness and the potential for lack of grandchildren. In the dream one of the last stops was in a wedding dress shop that served as a boutique and library. Weird I know. Anywho after trying on a wedding dress to help my mom out, I decided to check out the library.
The library was awesome! It was my favorite kind of library, it had low book cases of dark wood. Outside of the library there was a beautiful garden with all kinds of green life. There was also an awesome staircase that was sort of shaped like a waterfall. Meaning the top was sort of narrow and the base of the stairs were wide in marble. I loved it! It was my get away. It inspired creativity and imagination without overwhelming the senses. Well I was perusing the shelves and the librarian bitch told me it was closing time soon and I needed to leave. Then she made some snide comment about my singleness and shortness. I can't remember exactly what she said, but I started yelling at her. Telling her she is a rude old shrew who couldn't even dream of love because her nose is stuck in the bindings of books and her ass is larger than the dewey decimal system! I run out of the library/boutique with my parents in tow and tell them what that brat said.
Then that was it for that dream. The reason I named it getting a complex is because I think my dream was telling me that you are feeling insecure about singleness and shortness. BLAH! For future reference I HATE being picked up because people think I'm so short and cute that I can be picked up like a child! Last night while I was partying I was picked up multiple times and it bothered me!
Anywho I hope you all enjoyed my dreams or didn't!
I am shopping around with my parents. We were walking around a small strip mall just checking out the small shops and boutiques. A lot of the dream consists of going in and out of different shops and trying on things. My mom lately has been preoccupied by singleness and the potential for lack of grandchildren. In the dream one of the last stops was in a wedding dress shop that served as a boutique and library. Weird I know. Anywho after trying on a wedding dress to help my mom out, I decided to check out the library.
The library was awesome! It was my favorite kind of library, it had low book cases of dark wood. Outside of the library there was a beautiful garden with all kinds of green life. There was also an awesome staircase that was sort of shaped like a waterfall. Meaning the top was sort of narrow and the base of the stairs were wide in marble. I loved it! It was my get away. It inspired creativity and imagination without overwhelming the senses. Well I was perusing the shelves and the librarian bitch told me it was closing time soon and I needed to leave. Then she made some snide comment about my singleness and shortness. I can't remember exactly what she said, but I started yelling at her. Telling her she is a rude old shrew who couldn't even dream of love because her nose is stuck in the bindings of books and her ass is larger than the dewey decimal system! I run out of the library/boutique with my parents in tow and tell them what that brat said.
Then that was it for that dream. The reason I named it getting a complex is because I think my dream was telling me that you are feeling insecure about singleness and shortness. BLAH! For future reference I HATE being picked up because people think I'm so short and cute that I can be picked up like a child! Last night while I was partying I was picked up multiple times and it bothered me!
Anywho I hope you all enjoyed my dreams or didn't!
Circus
Last night's dream is a little hazy, but I am going to do my best to replay it for you all.
I was with another girl. I don't know her in real life, but she was my best friend in the dream. We were walking out of school when we saw this circus vehicle. We decided the circus magician life sounded a lot better than the life we were living. We joined this family of magicians and our first gig was soon! We weren't trained in the deceivery of magicians so our job was to entertain the crowd and prance around like court jesters. The stage we were supposed to be performing on the main stage which seated thousands of people, but we were stuck on the stage that only seated hundreds. I didn't mind because it was our first gig and didn't want such a huge audience! My friend was up first on stage and she was supposed to dress up as a starfish and prance around and joke and stuff. Well she drank way too much before taking stage and we had to pump her stomach just to get her off stage! She was stuck in her starfish costume! I couldn't find my way to the stage to help her out. I was just wondering around trying to find a door to the stage! Finally, I found my way and took stage as a mermaid!
That's when I woke up with a terrible hangover headache!
I was with another girl. I don't know her in real life, but she was my best friend in the dream. We were walking out of school when we saw this circus vehicle. We decided the circus magician life sounded a lot better than the life we were living. We joined this family of magicians and our first gig was soon! We weren't trained in the deceivery of magicians so our job was to entertain the crowd and prance around like court jesters. The stage we were supposed to be performing on the main stage which seated thousands of people, but we were stuck on the stage that only seated hundreds. I didn't mind because it was our first gig and didn't want such a huge audience! My friend was up first on stage and she was supposed to dress up as a starfish and prance around and joke and stuff. Well she drank way too much before taking stage and we had to pump her stomach just to get her off stage! She was stuck in her starfish costume! I couldn't find my way to the stage to help her out. I was just wondering around trying to find a door to the stage! Finally, I found my way and took stage as a mermaid!
That's when I woke up with a terrible hangover headache!
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Boom Boom Pow
Last night I was in a town created all my own. I did not recognize the place but I knew it was home. In the dream my family and I live in a small one road town. There was a concert in the church where we had all huge events. As I was walking in my dad leans over to tell me that bad things are coming to the town because he messed everything up. I did not understand what was happening, but the whole concert I was distracted. The next thing I know a woman's voice comes over the loud speaker.
She said "This concert is over. You all have only a little time to evacuate this building because I, Cruella DeVille, seek to kill the one who ruined my life. In order to do that, I will begin destroying every life in this town because you all played a part and you all will see the end of the lives of the ones you love. You may now begin evacuating."
I am the first one out the back door. My family is nowhere to be found and no one is coming out the door. I run back, why is no one running? I run to the back, then I run to the front. Everyone is slowly walking out the front doors, when there are perfectly good back doors that can speed up evacuation! I run back to the back door and start grabbing people and drag them out with me. I still can't find my family. I find my friend, who we all call Chicken, and drag her out of the church. As soon as we are out of the church, it blows up. Chicken and I dive into the nearby ravine and pray for our lives. As soon as the explosion has subsided, I run back to check the ruins. It is completely devastating. Anyone who was in the building is dead. The only structure that remains is a brick wall in the middle of the rubble. There are screams and moans and I lose it.
After I blackout it is a week later. Everyone is walking around town normally and casually. They even seemed relieved. I know why, it's because my family died in the explosion. Cruella DeVille left us alone because they were dead and she got her revenge. However, something is not right. I see many people walking in and out of the plaza and I know that they are going to die. Cruella is going to destroy more lives, but why? I am yelling at the people "don't go in, it's a trap!"
And then it's done. Many people die and I don't know what to do. I then realize why this explosion happened. I am still alive. I am the only remaining bloodline of my father. I must die with the rest of my family. I begin to run and Chicken follows. I start rolling down a hill in efforts to escape. I am running and before I know it my other friends are following me. Chicken, Kenzie, and Noelle are all with me. Noelle tells me of a sanctuary place that we can live and steer Cruella away from this town. We travel to a place that looks like a mix of Japan and Mexico. We are bunkered in an abandoned school just waiting. Everyone is comfortable and not worried at all. We of course made adjustments to for emergencies, but that was all we could do. I don't know how I always know, but I know when Cruella is coming. We are all watching a movie in a room, they're all giggling and whatnot when I just jump up and yell run! They don't pay attention and just keep giggling. I drag Noelle with me and we hop the fence from the play ground roll down a hill and start running.
Noelle and I make it to the outdoor market, miles away from the abandoned school. As soon as we get there we see the abandoned school atop the hill burst into flames. We stop as to watch and pray that our friends made it out ok. We see my friend Jigga working at a jewelry store. She gives us a message and we continue on our way. We just walk around the vast downtown until we feel it's safe to return to the school to check on our friends. We return on a different route and we can't find anyone.
I wake-up to a text message and it ruined my dream! I tried to continue dreaming, but I guess I will never know if my friends made it or not.
She said "This concert is over. You all have only a little time to evacuate this building because I, Cruella DeVille, seek to kill the one who ruined my life. In order to do that, I will begin destroying every life in this town because you all played a part and you all will see the end of the lives of the ones you love. You may now begin evacuating."
I am the first one out the back door. My family is nowhere to be found and no one is coming out the door. I run back, why is no one running? I run to the back, then I run to the front. Everyone is slowly walking out the front doors, when there are perfectly good back doors that can speed up evacuation! I run back to the back door and start grabbing people and drag them out with me. I still can't find my family. I find my friend, who we all call Chicken, and drag her out of the church. As soon as we are out of the church, it blows up. Chicken and I dive into the nearby ravine and pray for our lives. As soon as the explosion has subsided, I run back to check the ruins. It is completely devastating. Anyone who was in the building is dead. The only structure that remains is a brick wall in the middle of the rubble. There are screams and moans and I lose it.
After I blackout it is a week later. Everyone is walking around town normally and casually. They even seemed relieved. I know why, it's because my family died in the explosion. Cruella DeVille left us alone because they were dead and she got her revenge. However, something is not right. I see many people walking in and out of the plaza and I know that they are going to die. Cruella is going to destroy more lives, but why? I am yelling at the people "don't go in, it's a trap!"
And then it's done. Many people die and I don't know what to do. I then realize why this explosion happened. I am still alive. I am the only remaining bloodline of my father. I must die with the rest of my family. I begin to run and Chicken follows. I start rolling down a hill in efforts to escape. I am running and before I know it my other friends are following me. Chicken, Kenzie, and Noelle are all with me. Noelle tells me of a sanctuary place that we can live and steer Cruella away from this town. We travel to a place that looks like a mix of Japan and Mexico. We are bunkered in an abandoned school just waiting. Everyone is comfortable and not worried at all. We of course made adjustments to for emergencies, but that was all we could do. I don't know how I always know, but I know when Cruella is coming. We are all watching a movie in a room, they're all giggling and whatnot when I just jump up and yell run! They don't pay attention and just keep giggling. I drag Noelle with me and we hop the fence from the play ground roll down a hill and start running.
Noelle and I make it to the outdoor market, miles away from the abandoned school. As soon as we get there we see the abandoned school atop the hill burst into flames. We stop as to watch and pray that our friends made it out ok. We see my friend Jigga working at a jewelry store. She gives us a message and we continue on our way. We just walk around the vast downtown until we feel it's safe to return to the school to check on our friends. We return on a different route and we can't find anyone.
I wake-up to a text message and it ruined my dream! I tried to continue dreaming, but I guess I will never know if my friends made it or not.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Lord of the Dreams: Return of the Crazy
Ok yes the title is lame, as are most of my titles, but oh well!
Alright so since I didn't update my blog throughout the vacation many dreams were lost to my memory.
Here are some that stuck:
Wedding bells:
So in one night I heard of my cousins engagement and one of my friends attended a wedding and posted a million pictures on facebook. So my dream created a wedding! My friend Mariah was getting married and I was her maid of honor! In real life this would not be true because we are not close enough for her to choose me as her maid of honor. Anywho, I planned everything! Her dress, not my favorite style but looked really elegant on her, had a lot of pickups, it was pristine white, and a halter top with jewels all over the bodice. She looked spectacular! The bridesmaids wore red and had white rose bouquets. The ceremony was flawless and we soon were transitioning into the reception. Well as most weddings go, there are millions of pictures after the ceremony while everyone heads to the reception. Between every picture that Mariah took, I fed her a shot of tequila! Obviously that did not go over well because the rest of the dream I am following Mariah around as she dances with a bucket in case she needs to puke again! She had a great time, but I kind of wasn't the best maid of honor!
Homecoming:
The next dream I returned to my alma mater to attend the homecoming game. There were numerous activities and events that an alumni could attend. So I arrived early hoping to catch up with some friends! One of the activities was a school clothing sale. At my alma mater they had a store that they named the Cupboard. I was shopping in the Cupboard which was right next to the cafeteria and they shared a restroom hallway. I told my girlfriends I would be right back! When I returned there was my ex with his around a smoking hot model looking girl. My ex and I share an alma mater and that was the first time I had seen him since we broke up. I, of course, cannot keep my composure and I had to leave.
I hated that dream because it was one of those dreams that leaves me in a funk for most of the day. It was so realistic that it took me a long to distinguish reality from dream. More like it took me a while to return to reality from my dream. The emotions and feelings lingered and could not separate them from dream world to reality. Blah!
That's all I've got for now, if I remember anymore trust me you will be the first to hear about it!
Alright so since I didn't update my blog throughout the vacation many dreams were lost to my memory.
Here are some that stuck:
Wedding bells:
So in one night I heard of my cousins engagement and one of my friends attended a wedding and posted a million pictures on facebook. So my dream created a wedding! My friend Mariah was getting married and I was her maid of honor! In real life this would not be true because we are not close enough for her to choose me as her maid of honor. Anywho, I planned everything! Her dress, not my favorite style but looked really elegant on her, had a lot of pickups, it was pristine white, and a halter top with jewels all over the bodice. She looked spectacular! The bridesmaids wore red and had white rose bouquets. The ceremony was flawless and we soon were transitioning into the reception. Well as most weddings go, there are millions of pictures after the ceremony while everyone heads to the reception. Between every picture that Mariah took, I fed her a shot of tequila! Obviously that did not go over well because the rest of the dream I am following Mariah around as she dances with a bucket in case she needs to puke again! She had a great time, but I kind of wasn't the best maid of honor!
Homecoming:
The next dream I returned to my alma mater to attend the homecoming game. There were numerous activities and events that an alumni could attend. So I arrived early hoping to catch up with some friends! One of the activities was a school clothing sale. At my alma mater they had a store that they named the Cupboard. I was shopping in the Cupboard which was right next to the cafeteria and they shared a restroom hallway. I told my girlfriends I would be right back! When I returned there was my ex with his around a smoking hot model looking girl. My ex and I share an alma mater and that was the first time I had seen him since we broke up. I, of course, cannot keep my composure and I had to leave.
I hated that dream because it was one of those dreams that leaves me in a funk for most of the day. It was so realistic that it took me a long to distinguish reality from dream. More like it took me a while to return to reality from my dream. The emotions and feelings lingered and could not separate them from dream world to reality. Blah!
That's all I've got for now, if I remember anymore trust me you will be the first to hear about it!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Pinky promise
Hola, or aloha to all!
Sorry I have not posted lately! It hasn't been for lack of dreams, but I have been without internet and simply just wanted to enjoy the holidays! As soon as I feel like it I will blog more!
PINKY PROMISE!
Sorry I have not posted lately! It hasn't been for lack of dreams, but I have been without internet and simply just wanted to enjoy the holidays! As soon as I feel like it I will blog more!
PINKY PROMISE!
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