Wedding

I woke up so mad because I had a dream I married Jared. I was so mad because I am over it and dreams are supposed to reflect what you want, but I don't want to marry him! Here's the dream:

The dream starts with a really long and complicated dream about escaping the clutches of radically conservative Christian women and let me tell you those ladies were absolutely insane! The house we had to escape back to was really nice though! Anyway once I get back to the house it was time to plan the wedding. I wanted all of my friends to be able to come, but I also wanted to get married on a four day weekend off of school. The nearest one was labor day weekend, but that's way too soon it makes the most sense to me. However, not really much time to plan a wedding so we decide on OU/Texas weekend because most people we know aren't going. Then my dream skips ahead....

Jared and I are sitting waiting for the wedding to start and he's so happy and so am I! The preacher begins to say an opening prayer and Jared leans over and says something that I can't quite understand and I think he is trying to leave me at the alter. However, he's all smiles and I don't know why? Then he leans over and says

"I don't know how to do this!"

 I took my hand out of his and said "Are you saying you don't want to get married?"

He just chuckles and takes my reluctant hand back and explains "I don't know where I am supposed to be or go, I don't how to do this wedding thing." (yes I remember most of the dialogue.)

Then it all makes sense, he just needs instruction on the ceremony part of the wedding. So I smile back and tell him everything he needs to know using the program as a guide. Then it's my turn to go back and wait for my trip down the aisle! I go to get my dad so he can walk me down the aisle, but he says something about his knee hurting and asks and old friend Jessica to do it for him. I am slightly upset, but I just want to get married so I try to remain positive. I walk to the hall outside of the chapel where the flower girls are super cute and Paulina is waiting for instruction. Natalie wasn't able to make it for some reason, I think her flight was delayed. I ask Paulina to be my maid of honor and then we look behind us and see that Jared looks a little lost, so instead Paulina says she's going to help Jared out.

Then Jessica (my cousin not my escort) is running late and goes up to the preacher right before I am about to walk down the aisle. She delays the wedding and runs upstairs. I think it'll be just a short delay, but then I am waiting for 30 minutes! She finally comes running down the stairs again and says she needs five minutes to have a conversation with someone. I start yelling at her, I tell her,

"No you can't, this is MY wedding!  I didn't pull any of this shit when you got married because it was YOUR wedding but now it's MY turn and I WOULD NEVER DO THIS TO YOU!"

She just nods and heads into the chapel. By the time I head down the aisle they have a band of salsa dancers onstage performing while I walk down the aisle. Not really what I envisaged, but I just want to get married!

We finally get married and start the round of post wedding pictures which I get tired of pretty quickly! Jared and I steal away and find a room that we can sneak in a few kisses, which we do and then I wake up!

Now this is such a happy dream, but I didn't like it! I married my ex, who I don't care for anymore and he doesn't care for me! It made me so cranky when I woke up. I decided to get some answers. I sought the first website on my google search called dreammoods.com and this is what it said:

"To dream that you are getting married to your ex, suggests that you have accepted aspects of that relationship and learned from those past mistakes. Alternatively, it  means that a current relationship shares some commonality with your previous relationship with your ex. However, since you are aware of the similarities, you know not make those same mistakes."

This made me feel so much better! However, now I don't know what relationship my dream was referring to! Oh well! At least it means I'm not still in love with my ex! Now I can go about my day without being cranky! 

Happy sunday!