Monday, September 24, 2012

Experimenting!

So my neighbors have left a pile of emptied cardboard boxes outside of our apartments and in the walkway since July.... They are EMPTY BOXES that aren't that heavy to carry down to the dumpster!! WHY!?!??!?!

So the first experiment I ran definitely didn't work out like I planned. I decided to leave a bag of trash that I needed to take to the dumpster outside my apartment until they took down those boxes. I left it there almost a week until the contents of my trash bag started to reek something nasty! I gave in and took the trash to the dumpster, like a good neighbor!

Experiment two was a little more subtle! I had a smaller cardboard box that I needed to get out of my apartment. I decided to add it to the pile outside of my apartment to see if they would notice and/or unintentionally take out my box with their plethora of boxes. Tonight I walk up my stairs to my apartment and see that they have separated my box from theirs, placed it in front of my door, and left their boxes in place! Who goes through a pile of boxes to notice the one out of place box? I can't believe they placed it back in front of my door!

Who are these people and why won't they take down their boxes?

I have a feeling I might experiment more with this annoying situation!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Theological Pondering

Hello dreamers, every now and then I break away from dreams and just self reflect. Sometimes I wish I was as eloquent as Kate and witty to boot, however I am plain old straight forward type like I would talk type of gal. (Ignore every single comma error in any of these sentences, if Kate can do it, so can you!)

This time I was hanging out in my apartment and I started getting paranoid that someone was in my apartment (this happens frequently). I shot up a prayer towards heaven to protect me. I stopped mid prayer and thought, a good majority of my friends are atheists, non-believers, agnostic, or indifferent. Here I am praying to a God that I am so sure exists, but my friends don't! Aren't christians supposed to hang out with other christians, but I prefer the company of non-believers. So my next prayer was something like this, "Hey God, is there a reason why you surround me with non-believers, can you give me a hint?" Yes, this is how I pray. I have a strong inkling that I am not supposed to change my friends beliefs or lack thereof. I don't think they need to change what they believe because even good christians are going to have fallbacks. Christian or not everyone has their flaws and beliefs don't change that! In my humble (most of the time inaccurate, but this time I think accurate) opinion, these people have been placed in my life to prove that accepting people and loving people is the best way to show your belief in God. I never understood christians who gave up on people or tried to change them, it didn't seem like what Jesus would do. Ya I did that. So I am choosing to interpret what Jesus would do by loving the people in my life and the future people I plan to meet!

Cheesy? Too religious for my readers? You know what? I don't really care, I just wanted to post about an interesting thought. That's what blogs are for aren't they?

Happy pondering!

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Wedding

I woke up so mad because I had a dream I married Jared. I was so mad because I am over it and dreams are supposed to reflect what you want, but I don't want to marry him! Here's the dream:

The dream starts with a really long and complicated dream about escaping the clutches of radically conservative Christian women and let me tell you those ladies were absolutely insane! The house we had to escape back to was really nice though! Anyway once I get back to the house it was time to plan the wedding. I wanted all of my friends to be able to come, but I also wanted to get married on a four day weekend off of school. The nearest one was labor day weekend, but that's way too soon it makes the most sense to me. However, not really much time to plan a wedding so we decide on OU/Texas weekend because most people we know aren't going. Then my dream skips ahead....

Jared and I are sitting waiting for the wedding to start and he's so happy and so am I! The preacher begins to say an opening prayer and Jared leans over and says something that I can't quite understand and I think he is trying to leave me at the alter. However, he's all smiles and I don't know why? Then he leans over and says

"I don't know how to do this!"

 I took my hand out of his and said "Are you saying you don't want to get married?"

He just chuckles and takes my reluctant hand back and explains "I don't know where I am supposed to be or go, I don't how to do this wedding thing." (yes I remember most of the dialogue.)

Then it all makes sense, he just needs instruction on the ceremony part of the wedding. So I smile back and tell him everything he needs to know using the program as a guide. Then it's my turn to go back and wait for my trip down the aisle! I go to get my dad so he can walk me down the aisle, but he says something about his knee hurting and asks and old friend Jessica to do it for him. I am slightly upset, but I just want to get married so I try to remain positive. I walk to the hall outside of the chapel where the flower girls are super cute and Paulina is waiting for instruction. Natalie wasn't able to make it for some reason, I think her flight was delayed. I ask Paulina to be my maid of honor and then we look behind us and see that Jared looks a little lost, so instead Paulina says she's going to help Jared out.

Then Jessica (my cousin not my escort) is running late and goes up to the preacher right before I am about to walk down the aisle. She delays the wedding and runs upstairs. I think it'll be just a short delay, but then I am waiting for 30 minutes! She finally comes running down the stairs again and says she needs five minutes to have a conversation with someone. I start yelling at her, I tell her,

"No you can't, this is MY wedding!  I didn't pull any of this shit when you got married because it was YOUR wedding but now it's MY turn and I WOULD NEVER DO THIS TO YOU!"

She just nods and heads into the chapel. By the time I head down the aisle they have a band of salsa dancers onstage performing while I walk down the aisle. Not really what I envisaged, but I just want to get married!

We finally get married and start the round of post wedding pictures which I get tired of pretty quickly! Jared and I steal away and find a room that we can sneak in a few kisses, which we do and then I wake up!

Now this is such a happy dream, but I didn't like it! I married my ex, who I don't care for anymore and he doesn't care for me! It made me so cranky when I woke up. I decided to get some answers. I sought the first website on my google search called dreammoods.com and this is what it said:

"To dream that you are getting married to your ex, suggests that you have accepted aspects of that relationship and learned from those past mistakes. Alternatively, it  means that a current relationship shares some commonality with your previous relationship with your ex. However, since you are aware of the similarities, you know not make those same mistakes."

This made me feel so much better! However, now I don't know what relationship my dream was referring to! Oh well! At least it means I'm not still in love with my ex! Now I can go about my day without being cranky! 

Happy sunday!


Saturday, September 8, 2012

Dream Quotes

“I find out a lot about myself by sleeping. Dreams, they are who I am when I’m too tired to be me.” 

“You know that place between sleeping and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always think of you.”


“I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time.”



“All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream.” 



“Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night.” 


“You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us. And the world will live as one.” 


“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.” 


“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” 


“Hold fast to dreams,
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird,
That cannot fly.” 


“He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream and he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it.” 


“I have dreamt in my life, dreams that have stayed with me ever after, and changed my ideas; they have gone through and through me, like wine through water, and altered the color of my mind. And this is one: I'm going to tell it - but take care not to smile at any part of it.” 


“Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete? Proving nature's laws wrong, it learned to walk without having feet. Funny, it seems to by keeping it's dreams; it learned to breathe fresh air. Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else even cared.” 


“In dreams, we enter a world that's entirely our own.”


“You may tire of reality but you never tire of dreams.”


“Sometimes the dreams that come true are the dreams you never even knew you had.” 


“It’s strange how dreams get under your skin and give your heart a test for what’s real and what’s imaginary.” 


“Dreams are the touchstones of our characters.” 


“Dreams, if they're any good, are always a little bit crazy. ” 


“Dreams are illustrations...from the book your soul is writing about you.”


“What if you slept? And what if, in your sleep, you went to heaven and there plucked a strange and beautiful flower? And what if,when you awoke,you had the flower in your hand? Ah, what then?” 


“The best reason for having dreams is that in dreams no reasons are necessary.” 


“Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives.” 


“Five minutes are enough to dream a whole life, that is how relative time is.” 


“I wish you to know that you have been the last dream of my soul.”


“The sky is full of dreams, but you don't know how to fly.”


Bears and Fears!

I was visiting my aunt and uncle's farm because they were redoing their house and adjacent cabin. They needed my help because they didn't like their contractor and they couldn't communicate with him. I assured them that their contractor, Victor, was most likely a nice guy and someone just needed to give him a chance. I set out to find Victor and of course he was working on an unapproved project near the creek on the farm. I simple went up to him and just started talking to him normally and he was really wary of me. Come to find out, he was French and the reason he couldn't communicate is because he didn't want my aunt and uncle to know he was French. I told him that it doesn't matter if he's French, but he probably should stick to their ideas and if he had any additional ideas then he should bring it up with them first. After my honesty, Victor took a real shine to me! We hung out for the rest of the day, but around dusk I had to go home. I waved goodbye to everyone from the end of the driveway, turn around to leave, when a bear attacked me!  The bear left a huge gaping gash in the back, but instead of fighting back I just play dead and the bear leaves me alone, but he doesn't actually leave. The bear stands over me and just kind of chills. The last thing I see before I black out is Victor running towards the bear with some type of deadly weapon. When I regained consciousness in my dream I was emotionally scarred by the scar that the bear left on my back. I couldn't stop looking of the physical reminder of my bear attack.

That's when I wake up!

The next two dreams are fearful for their own reasons.

The first one, I was in the RV with my parents and Sam drinking and having a good time. Well someone tells us that we have to move, so dad starts driving wasted! He was doing just fine until a really good dance song comes on the radio and we all just start going crazy dancing. This lead to dad swerving between every lane on the road in a giant RV. Naturally, the cops pulled us over for potential drunk driving, but we can't stop immediately because there no shoulder or parking lot big enough for the RV. By the time dad was able to pull over the cop just didn't care anymore and let us off with a warning! We were so scared because we all thought we were going to jail!

The next dream was solely based on my own fears yesterday. For some reason I was really jumpy all day yesterday at my apartment. I even thought at some point that Kate came into my apartment while I was showering and just said hey girl. Ok so now onto my actual dream. The whole dream had an air of sketchiness to it and it was incredibly unnerving! It was really late at my apartment and Kate was coming home from the bars and starts yelling up to me at my apartment. I just laugh and go out to greet her and that's when I notice my alarm not working properly, but I don't pay much attention to it. As I was talking to Kate I noticed a my neighbor just chilling outside his apartment too just watching us. He went back into his apartment not long after Kate and I started talking. Kate said goodbye and turned around to leave when my downstairs neighbor started to have a seizure! Kate didn't really know what to do and I just said, "not again..." I had her call 911 while I locked my apartment and turned on the alarm. When I get downstairs Kate was helping the man back into his apartment and handing his son over to his wife. I was glad everything was ok, and that's when I woke up!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Paris, Airplanes, and Secret Government Operations!

Long time no write bloggers! And no it isn't for a lack of dreams I just haven't really cared to much in a while. However, last night's dream deserves to be recorded, and maybe the dream before that too!

The dream started as I was saying goodbye to my parents and getting on an airplane to some town in France. On the airplane, my parents were kind enough to get me a first class seat and I got to know the man sitting next to me. About halfway through the flight the flight attendant asks the man to come with her for a moment. He gets up and follows her, which I thought was strange so I kind of snuck behind them because I was morbidly curious. Other flight attendants and passengers were all walking to the same place, another airplane that attached itself to ours. The passengers were being escorted to their corresponding chairs in the adjacent plane. They were also wearing the oxygen masks but it was pretty obvious that there wasn't oxygen pouring into the masks. All of the selected passengers were passed out and the flight attendants were injecting something into the jaws of the passengers. It was obviously some undetectable device that was tracker or something crazy like that. One of the flight attendants saw me watching this scene and threatens that if I don't get out of there and quick there will be far worse people to come and hurt me. So naturally, I get the heck out of dodge and return safely to my seat. I fall asleep hoping to forget about what I saw and before I know it I am landed in France.

Then my dream montages to a few weeks later, and the incident on the flight almost forgotten. One day I am walking to the market and I see none other than Jared (long time no see for this guy). He welcomes me with a great smile and open arms. He immediately launches into a prepared speech about how he had done things all wrong and that he wanted to start all over with a first date again. I was confused though because last I heard he was dating someone. He said that girl and him were over and that she obviously wasn't me. I thought it was a sweet speech so I agreed to a second first date. When he arrives at my place and for some reason he is always smiling. This is the moment were I realized he had a trick up his sleeve and I wasn't going to like it. I looked at him and said "just tell me, you actually don't want to go on a date, do you even have money? What do you really have in mind?" Once again smiling the whole time he responds with,"I actually don't want to go on a date, I just really wanted to ask you for money and have my way with you in bed." I was completely aghast, he was just so blunt and I just couldn't believe it. I just went upstairs and he followed with that stupid grin on his face. I just asked him how much money he needed and gave him whatever he needed because I just didn't want to deal with that. In the goodness of his heart (sarcasm), he decided he wanted to hang out after all, go figure. We actually had some fun once all things were out in the open and I didn't have to pretend that he wasn't an asshole.

We continue to hang out, but before long I head back to the states to visit my family. That means getting on an airplane. The ride is going fine and smooth until I decide to get up and move around on the long return flight home. I see my friend Jenny and start talking to her while holding my ipad and blanket. Before I know it, the whole entire plane starts falling head on into the ocean. I have no idea what is going on but something has me pinned to the wall so I don't go flying around the airplane cabin.  Eventually, we land in the water and the life preserver rafts are already out and I notice only the people who had the device implanted in their jaws were getting off. The rest of the people were slowly walking around in a daze. The flight attendants then shuffled the rest of the people without devices into the rafts. One of the flight attendants tries to take off with my blanket and I almost tackled her to get it back! Also, I couldn't find my ipad so I was looking frantically and so was Jenny. Before we had a chance to escape the aircraft it takes off again! We have no idea what to do on an empty airplane! We walk to the first class cabin and see the secret meeting explaining the point of the devices, then I WOKE UP!

I will never know what the devices were for!!! MADNESS!